I bet I know why you're here, visiting my blog :) I'm sure you've already guessed...
I don't think you guys understand how hard it's been keeping it from you followers. I've known since I was 3 1/2 weeks pregnant. Hehe. I am currently 13 weeks and 2 days pregnant. Everything is looking great this time around! I had an ultra sound on Valentine's day (when I was 8 1/2 weeks) to make sure that everything was okay, which it was. I definitely shed some tears when I heard that heartbeat for the first time. Such a beautiful sound to begin with, but that much more special after losing a baby 5 months prior. Then we heard the heartbeat twice in the past week and again, everything sounds healthy and strong!!!
This pregnancy was definitely difficult when it came to my nerves and anxiousness. It was so hard to not wonder if we were going to have a miscarriage again. Every tiny little cramp sent me through the roof. Constantly running to the bathroom to make sure that I'm not bleeding. Right around the 9 1/2 - 10 week mark was hardest for me. That's about the time that we lost Zakary. At that time (this pregnancy) I wasn't really sure why I was so anxious until I realized how far along I was. So it's just been constant prayers and just saying that everything's in God's hands and if it's meant to be this time around, that He just places His hand on us and help us to know that it's okay :)
It's amazing, to sit back and look at what God has done in our lives that past (almost) year. Jordan and I are planning (if everything goes well) on moving in the next month. If my pregnancy, with Zakary, went through to full term, I would be due next month. Can you imagine moving when you're 9 months pregnant?!?! And we probably won't even be settled in by the time that he arrives. Wow. As heartbreaking as it was to go through that process, I am definitely praising God for just how amazing He and His plans are. I just can't get over how He knew exactly what He was doing and even though we were hurt. It brought us closer to Him and each other. I have always loved the verse, Jeremiah 29:11. And the situation with our miscarriage just proves it that much more.
So, I'm sure you want to hear stats!!! At 8 1/2 weeks, the baby's heart rate was 178 bpm. Then at 12 1/2 weeks the heart rate was at 156 bpm. I also took a gender predictor test this morning and the results came out boy. Hehe. We're really hoping for a boy this time around. However, again, we won't be upset if we do have a girl. Jordan loves Autumn so much. Their bond is incredible! And I know he will love this child just the same.
I do have some prayer requests though... Last doctor's appointment I got a lecture on drinking water. I was dehydrated. Ugh, I have such a hard time remembering to drink water!!! So, yeah, bought a new water bottle to hopefully help me with that (Autumn keeps knocking down my cups, so I needed one with a lid she can't open). Also, my blood platelet levels were low. I'm still not 100% sure what that means for me now. The Dr. I saw is a little hyper and over enthusiastic, so I barely understood a word she was saying. I do know, that she said if they get below 80 when I'm in labor, I can't have an epidural (which she noted from my delivery with Autumn). So, what does this mean now? Blood work every week. Oh joy!
One last thing. People (who I've told) look at me like I'm crazy when I say that I've known I was pregnant since I was 3 1/2 weeks. Yes, it is true! I know my body very, very well. I had implantation bleeding 6 days before my period was supposed to start and took a test that day. It was negative. Then I took a pregnancy test 2 days later (like you're supposed to) and it was a definite positive! Jordan and I have been praying non-stop since :) Also, some people have been asking if we started trying right after my first period after the miscarriage. The answer is no. We did not. We waited until we were both ready. Again, I was super nervous, I actually wasn't sure if I was ready when Jordan was. But we trusted God and we are both ready for baby #2 (this fall) and sure enough, we got pregnant that month. Haha. Our due date is Sept 22nd, just 3 days after Autumn's birthday! Guess she's getting an early birthday this year...